The first steps towards what I need to do for my happiness are beginning, the blood tests are first. I had my first blood test last week, I've to go in again tomorrow, since it's Wedensday at the time this is being written and the appointment is on Thursday morning, for a second blood test.
To say I'm terrified of the needles would be an understatement, but I need to be happy in life and I can't be happy as I am on the outside. It's been too painful trying to be as my external appearance shows, I can never be that way.

So while the first steps are being taken I'm doing my best to keep busy, I've restarted the Trekathon, I'm playing more video games - looking forward to Dragon Age and I'm reading. The Transformers collection however is being hit hard by the feelings coming out more and more each day, my interest in the collection is fading.

First steps, wandering mind. And this damn comp is being a pain due to low ram, the sooner I get more ram for it the better.